ystd went to work after all... g.i need ppl so i jus go loh.. haiz... sianz... my shoe spoil again... die lah... need to go and change again leh... haiz.. cost 108 and yet it spoils so easliy.. nb... waste my time and cash man..

guess wat now i am at pl.. the time is 0501am... i am still awake... haiz... wat am i doin at pl at such a late hour.. i didnt went home.. haiz.. jus now during work i fell in the kitchen.. know my head and sprain my leg and hand.. losuy person.. a sinple slip got so mani injuries.. haiz.. weaker by the dae man... had 3 jags of beer jus now.. was so fan man.. nothing in life goes my way.. guess emmeline is rite.. i am not the type of person for her... do u actually noe sumting.. i lyk u for a lng time le... but.. when eva i see u being so good with the other guy i kinda feel that are u overly socialable with guys? but guess tts the cuteness i found in u.. i can say anyting to u.. actually i didnt know i msg u jus now to tell u i lyk u it only when i woke up with the breaking headach den i realised i did msg u to tell u i really like u.. but after i finsh reading wat u send.. i got tis feeling.. we are impossible.. is it true? do u noe i made a realli big decision not to go back to my old self? the one who finds no meaning in lyf.. the one who only noe how to spend $$ lyk no tml? but after all those times of being my new self of a better person.. a more caring person.. sumone whome is easier to xiang chu... but now it all goes back to sq one.. its beeing a realli long time since i make myself drunk.. since i stay out for a gal.. and all u say was.. do not lie down for a gal.. its foolish.. why?? why is lyf so unfair.. why doesnt god jus grant my wish.. if not can i make another? jus let me die.. i would rather leave tis miserable world den to live is so unhappily.. why.. why cant u jus try.. why cant u jus gimme a chance?? a chance is all i need... is it realli tt difficult? i dun understand.. can u explain it to me? emmeline said tt.. u would only treat me as a nut case.. isit tru? i am actually droping tears for another gal.. tis shows how much i realli lyk u.. love is too strong a word to use.. it would scare away u... i cant believe all u cais was "i am lost for words.. but tank you" wat a nice reply.. omg.. god can u jus let me die.. i dun wan anymore of tis nonsence... jiabao i realli like you.. i dare to confess.. i would not be the new me anymore.. i will not lie back and see tings happening before my eyes.. i will fight for wat i want.. i will.. tings will start to change.. there is only two resolution to tis problem.. one.. we would not contact anymore.. or two.. we would still contact but.. anywae both of the solution is not wat i want... i jus wana be with u.. why cant i? why cant i jus haf a chance to prove who i realli is? forget it.. my lyf is jus gonna be a failure... it suckx.. suan le.. jua let me leave tis plante asap.. to take all sufferings with me.. no1 will evn care if i am around... u dun even believe wen weiyu said "junwei wan to jio u" infront of me.. n ur reply was.. dun make him paiseh le lah.. he is mad.. u noe how much tt sentence hurt me.. altot it might be a causual remake but its oways those causual remakes tt hurt the most.. ppl who are hurt unknowingly is hurt the deepest... argh.. nb.. i should jsu end my lyf once and for all....