I've finally gotten to understand bout certain things that i might even know myself. I guess i'm not the nicest guy that i've always thought that i am. I may not be even the sweetest, gentlemen, WHATSOEVER shit. actually, my life isn't that beautiful afterall. even with those friends, i could hardly count on anyone at all. not even that few. but if only life could live on just alone, i might just do that. i'm not impulsive, just abit impatient. thats when i feel the unimportance in myself.

how great is it being nice and getting unfair treatment back? it oways seem like when i have been doin the wrong things at the wrong time.. i tried keepin everyting to myself.. my emotions and stuffs.. yet once again... *BoOm*.. i go back to the orginal form.. back to square one.. everything comes out.. i read something lyk this.. no matter how hard we try to overwrite somethings that was once wrong.. it oways goes back to suqare one..

i realised that things started turning SOUR and COLD after i told u what i didn't mean the other nite.. the nite when i told u i was sick and tired of u.. when i didnt want to contact you for a few weeks.. i didnt mean it.. i just feel that if i got too close wif you i might fall for you... coz... you are too good.. i cant seems to find anymore reasons to make me not fall for you anymore.. all the bad stuffs i say bout you are not workin anymore.. they jus know me too well.. they know how i am like.. i hate this.. is not tt i dun wan to.. i know i cant.. we are impossible.. sucks.. tis sucks. my whole lifeE sucks...