it has been a year.. a year of not schooling.. 2 months of holidaes.. one month from the tsunimi disaster.. 3 weeks of working.. 2 weeks of not chatting.. and 1 week of not meeting up.. this short 1st month into the new year has been problematic.. loads of uncessary problems.. uncessary injuries.. loads of conflicts.. load of new frends.. load of new momories locked up.. lots and lots of things.. tried shooting jus few weeks ago at occ.. as fun as eva.. bundles of new experience.. experience tt i never once tot i would have.. the feeling of being left out.. the feeling of leaving ppl out.. feelings i never had.. i thought i could leave the past and live a new future.. but i was wong.. i miss it as much... and as for u and her and all the others... she is living happily wib her new bf.. and u are happy for my absence.. good.. at least i noe u two are happier than the past.. i am not going to mix ard with ur lives anymore.. frends are only a little word which doesn't mean as much as brother or soul mate.. its only a little thin red line between stranger.. its easy to break the line without noticing it.. guess i have break it once too mani times.. there is nothing more for me to to do.. to update.. my life is nothing without all of u.. working so much, and having happiness tt i have no1 to share wif.. 1st time trying to show concern for myself.. taking care of my body.. listening to the doctors.. am i doin the right things? or have i been doin too much as a fren. as a soul mate.. as.. a brother... too much..? or way too much..?