tokin to samantha now.. Jia ming dun get jealous we are discussin bout the project.. haha... we are actually not realli discussing bout the project.. but bout her.. sam is gonna get fat real fat if tis carry on.. coz she is stuffing food!! haha... tis is bad gal.. must control ur moods... hmm actually wat she said is quite sensible to sum extend... wat if i am her.. oh my i can put myself in her shoe.. haiz.. but i noe i will not want this to happen if i am her.. i would not want ppl to treat me lyk this... hiaz.. but.. alrite wateva it is i'll leave it here and close this chpt of the book.. gonna start a fresh... sam ask if i was realli very sad when i heard tt she has a boyfriend... but i tot it was fake? why would she ask me this den? or is it real? i oso dun noe if i am sad or wat.. but i do noe.. now all i wan is to know her better.. not realli into her yet.. but.... sumwhere within me tells me tt i am kind of sad.. i also do not know i am sad of/ for wat... try tinking it tis way.. ppl get to choose all the wrong paths and making mistakes before finally coming to the rite one for them.. the not so perfect but rite one.. its been so long since i got branded wib harsh and over playful.. tis shuld b the time to stop and step down.. take thing seriously and be more caring.. but am i not caring enuf? not serious enuf? not good enuf? why must it b guy who fall in ur "type" tt u will lyk.. must it be people who fall in the "type" den will interest u? gals are amazing creature.. there is this chinese proverb - women's heart is as deep as an ocean; its sumthing so beautiful, amazing, mysterious and... hard to understand its "nature"

Now its confirm.. she is attach.. taken.. her heart is occupied.. i am sad.. yes i am.. for no good reason i am somwhat sad tt she is attach.. a guy frm design.. new since sec 1.. tts long... alrite.. guess tis is it.. its realli time to change.. she says tt i am very playful.. i sucks... now tt even pohsuan say i must change.. be less harsh, more caring, more understanding, more serious... thinking back.. isnt all this wat jb told me b4.? hiaz... isnt tt the reason why u & i was never on the same button? hmm.. i shuld heed her advice in the 1st palce.. aRGH!!! wats the use now.. forget it... jus let it be.. i am bad.. i am harsh.. i am playful.. i suck.. i am a idiot.. watever it is... everyting is falling on me.. i am dying real soon... grandpa i am coming.. to meet u in nether land to reunite wib u there.. a place wib no worries no stress... leaving everyting behind..