one wrong movement and everything is back to square one.. why am i oways so foolish.. i promise to change.. for the better.. but seems like i am oways goin back to the old self.. irony rite.. previously i wan to go back to the hack care guy den now i wan to change again.. the indecisive me.. haiz.. i noe its bcoz of my stupid attitude that force you to say that phrase.. you dun mean it.. but its out.. i forced it out.. slap forehead.. a can be happy chat always turn out sour.. whats with me.. with my attitude.. arg... i'm an idiot.. i oways want to care about you.. help you.. show concern for u.. but i'm so doin it so harshly.. making u and i so pissed.. argh!!! guess its realli over tis time round.. you wouldnt even want to hear from me not to say see me on 24sept... i'm so useless... i cant bring myself to stop caring for or what u refer to as nagging bout you... i noe i am irritating.. i am oways nagging about u.. askin you not to do this not to do that.. but i myself is doin it infront of you.. what an idiot i am... we can be realli close but because of my silly attitude its all torn apart.. you once asked hw come we are oways only good for such a short while.. i finalli understand.. the problem all lies on me.. i'm the arshole that created all this problem.. the one who spoil it all.. the one who dont treasure the time... 还口口声声的说 would not treat you bad.. not treat you like what the guys haf treat you.. but.. i haf oways been treating you badly.. so what if i do make you happy make you laugh.. but all those bad thing i have done are having a even greater impact on you than the good times.. haiz.. guess if i realli want to get back this friendship i haf to work realli hard... i now dun even dare to tink that you will eva want to accept me.. its the friendship that i cant even keep not to say relationship.. haiz... slap forehead.. jb.. 我真的知错了。。原谅我好吗。。 gimme one last chance to prove i will change.. 好吗。。 i promise i wun screw it up tis time round.. i realli want tis friendship back.. i will be a totally changed person when u see me on 24 sept.. you said no1 will be able to celebrate ur birthday with you as you will be tired rite... but let me haf the chance.. make yourself free after work.. i'll be there no matter what time you end... promise.. jus tis chance.. one and the last...