chat wib u from 2.30am to 6.30am.. the longest time we spend together realli talking... understand quite a lot more tings bout you.. try to be a gal's friend before trying to be her boyfriend... am i realli too honest toward you? or rather it is tt we feel that there is no barrier between us thats why we would talk about almost anyting under the sun.. u asked.. if u have a bf would i feel sad.. my answer is no... but somehow my heart actually aches.. the reason u gaf for not letting me noe u haf a bf is tt coz weneva u haf one i will tend to distance from you.. tt i must agree.. i find tt u already have sumone who could take care of u.. who could make u feel happy so there is no reason for me to be ard. and wat if.. he finds out tt we are still contactin each other everynite.. talkin everynite? if its u how would u feel.. jealous bad sucky rite.. and quarrels would occur because of tis.. so why make myself a burdern for u.. i rather leave for good.. you never understood why i am always so harsh toward you when i want to help you... let me tell u again.. its because both of us are stubbon.. u would not lyk me to help u wen u are the one who is assigned to do the task.. but when i feel that you cant do it or u are pushing yourself to do it i will want to help.. but becoz of ur stupid attitude tt u do not lyk to trouble ppl to do tings for u, u will not "eat soft" tts why i can only be harsh toward you and tt makes you feel tt i am pissed at u.. actually its not i just want you to do what u can achieve faster.. tts all.. i have never realli got pissed with you before.. frankly speakin you are the 1st gal whome i stil stay by so long no matter what.. i noe u care jus tt u dun wanna show it to me so tt i wun get the wrong idea.. i dun understand why are u so stubbon.. giving me and urself a try is not tt tough.. i have stop the idiotic attitude of bringing people's pride down infront of others.. u have to believe.. good for me lo tts wat u will say.. arh.. i also dont know why i am so harsh towards u.. toward the girls i realli like.. i am harsh.. yes i am weird.. be it u believe it or not i have to tell u.. i sometimes realli feel wat u feel.. i understand what u are thinking like hw u know when i am sad, when i am thinking bout things i shuldnt think too much and when i am angry.. i realli appreciate u.. i do.. tt u can get use to me treating u so casual so boyish.. i noe u have told me countless times.. but i realli couldnt get u out of my head.. i figure out tt the only way is either u did not exist in my lyf or tt u realli did something tt make me so angry tt i would wana forget u.. im sorry tt i am the only guy who slapped you.. or rather sayang-ed ur faced.. u noe when i mean it when i dont.. Oh ya i realli wanna scream at u for tis.. stop telling me thing that i noe about you and hiding thing i want to knwo about you from me.. its oways those thing u feel that are small and unimportant that makes a difference... instead of sleeping i am here blogging.. if u ever was to read this i noe u will say haha stupid guy thinking too much again.. finish toking still dun wan sleep.. i am not goin sch ler.. let u sleep.. u are tired alrdy. dun wanna wake u up.. guess i go try get sum sleep ler.. good morning.. take care my lady..