i lied to the one i guess i am starting to fall for... she is a simple girl.. crazy at times.. but still simple..
tis is the 1st time after poly life start that i've drop a tear.. not over any girl or what..
but over my stupidness.. i cant even get easy things done...
people can take 2 hr to finish the whole chat log..
but i bloody took 2 days and still cant get it rite..
life is getting more and more boring for me..
i just cant seems to rubbish as much as i used to..
just couldnt seem to enjoy myself as i wan to..
everyting seems so boring.. all the jokes sounded so silly..
cute people looked irritating..
irritating people owes trashing..
its just another word and jiaming will get beaten...
one who doesnt noe his limits oways get treated like that??

i hate my brother.. he noe nothing and want to kao peh..
knn.. fuck man.. cant he use his ass to tink who is rite who is wrong..
its so bloody obvious can..
1st day of ghost festival..
month of the year again..
2 long month tis time round..
alots burning, praying, shunting, and jumping..
i wonder why do i miss someone so much yet when i see her nowadays i feel so irritated..
not the pissed irritated but the boring irritated..

i just wanna leave tis bloody world.. get my ass out of here..
but one part of me want to be alive till i go malaysia wif bernie and smoke till we fall..
sat nite will be goin either DXO or mos drink till i dun even noe hw to go home..
sunday training is going to be tough tink i will die there....

i need a shoulder to cry on.. a ear to speak into..
a hand to hold on.. and a heart to break mine..