long long day... thursday is oways a long day.. but today is exceptionally LONG and BORING.. i tot i have completed the 1st part of my java assignment.. but guess what.. Ng cl say i need to be able to receive data from the server.. so i tried.. and then the whole program jus wouldn't work. fucking hell.. i spend 45 mins sitting there like idiot tryin to figure out the prob and thus missing the meeting for the DHL usher thingy.. i realli hate it when i am so packed with things to do.. i missed lecture coz of java.. two lect missed alrdy.. sucks.. hate it URGH!!... all thanks to JuJu and WeeSiang that finalli debug the stupid problem.. haiz.. but.. not showing Ng.cl the program means i lost 5 marks for the 1st part.. die.. can u imagine that there are already people who has finish project 4 totalli from my class.. and i am like jus trying to get some time, settle down and start everything once and for all.. haiz..

been thinking alot lately.. what kind of person am i.. why do people find excuses for themselves... and guess what bernie's ans to that.. excuses are jus like assholes.. everyone has one.. and no one like what comes out of it.. it true to some extend.. why do some people get all so childish and have ridiculous feeling/emotions... have i been a bad boy to leave gods arms and wander alone trying to learn all by myself? is it that he wants me to go back to him? i am silly.. i think too much.. love is complicated.. love is blind.. love comes when u dont want it and leaves when u need it most.. the un-expected oways happens making the impossible say i am possible... can u imagine out of nowhere, no reason. someone can say she doesnt like your presence when u dun even tok to her.. i dun like this.. i hate this.. why tis oways happens..

i happen to see a bastard shaking his gf so vigorously that she cried.. Bastard.. After al she is a gal.. infront of so mani people reprimanding her.. haiz.. then cry liao jiu act good sayang her.. knn i detest this kind of guy.. u got no rite to be her bf man.. if not for the rest i would haf bash u the other time u knock into me.. knn... hum ji kia.. wanna do tings dun dare let people noe.. underhand chicken.. suan ler.. shuld stop.. mustnt go back to my past.. but all the problems i am facing is leading me back to square one.. the easily agitate, ridiculous... when a person is overly stressed he will do alot of un-desired things to people ard.. what he need most is people who care to be ard.. the rest can jus fuck off if u dun wanna get hurt...