after two weeks of working.. i kinda give myself one week of resting and driving lessons.. i use to tink iya driving so easy cluch acclerater and break nia.. now onli i realised that cluch control stress so much on ur muscle.. and reversing isnt as easy as i though it was.. chinming jus bough a car.. RC car.. drift spec.. urgh.. so wanted to buy one also. but.. someting is holding me back.. i duno what.. $300 on a car.. scale 1/10.. hmm mayb this is the one? okie.. next wed need alot people to work.. 90 tables if i never remember wrongly.. NS retreats... annually one.. haha.. woon kait is promoting.. SW.. performance... all that is needed.. alrite.. i learnt from woonkait.. you dun need to be given a chance to perform.. everyting you do shows how you perform.. well i know its true.. but.. sumtimes you just feel like its worthless to fight for something when you are not being asked to do.. or i am like tt.. i will be afraid to do extra things thus i dun do tings when am not asked to.. and i mention alot of times i hate service.. i duno why.. i use to like them. expecially course dinner.. its all about speed and helping ur mates.. but now.. speed is not my point but the mates.. all newcomer.. then stupid attitude.. smoke as and when they want.. fuck lo.. can course dinner half way go missing one.. sometimes.. just sometimes.. being an old bird at a place is not gOod.. when you are still jus a normal PT and people ard you are promoting high up.. they never talk to you like when all is PT anymore..

arabian nite is over.. jazz by the beach is coming back.. sat training are over soon.. sunday is here.. and its training again.. i wanted to improve but my physical is getting worse... training is jus wearing me out and not bringing me anywhere better.. i wanna change a towing partner.. bernie.. sorry but you are jus slowing me down alot.. i need to improve.. i want to improve.. i want to catch up.. get all the merits i want to achieve.. but whats holding me back.. URGH!!!

Yawen baby full month celebration tml.. i remeber when ever i meet up with her.. i'll bring siyu along... but now.. going there alone seems weird.. seems like some part of me is missing.. well mayb not.. we shall see how again tml..