i feel as though the circumstances in my life are not under my control right now. everyting seems to be going the total opposite of what i expected it to be. well mayb not everyting. but things which are important to me as of now. there are certain things i can't change.. someone told me.. it would be very helpful for me to resign myself to the facts. But there are also quite a few malleable points that i aren't seeing right now. things which even i myself don't understand what is wrong.. i canot imagine such stuffs are happening to me right now.. it seems like karama.. but.. at the same time my karama would hurt people around me.. so what is it.. am i suppose to leave or continue till the time comes? i wish i could have the courage to face it bravely and tell her about it.. but its not that i dont want to.. but i guess white lies are better for now.. since we aint stable we would break off easier i suppose? but.. is it really wat i want.. haiz.. guess i shuld stop blogging bout everyting.. gonna close this blog after new year.. so.. yea.. all i can say is.. cherish everyting before anyting is gone forever....