Disappointed? Nah..
Saturday, October 18,
you would have been the last to know if i was to died...
Someone told me this sentence: " Your job wont take care of you when you are sick, Your friends will. Always keep in touch with them."
How true is this.. many a times i realized things that i wish for doesn't happen. So its true, He gives you want you need not what you want. Thus i guess YOU are not what i need. That's why he took you out of my life once and for all.. Although its really hard on me.. But a sentence you reminded me this early morning. If he brings it to me. he will bring me through it. The fall you didn't bothered asking how i was already. This just shows how much you cared even as a friend. Its okie. you are overly busy i understand.
Alright put all these aside, field camp next week excited as i may be i realize my body couldn't take as much challenge as i pose to it. IFC for the last 2 days prone, leopard crawl, yada yada. alot more combat fitness and mental endurance. Guess Field camp is gonna be a memorable one.
This would be all I've to say.. and for those who care i am still alive and kicking. Although he who brought me to it, will bring me through it. but he brought me more than what i could take more pain then i can endure, more sleepless night then i could take.. but i believe what doesn't kill me only makes me stronger.. this time round i hope this is gonna be true.. if not i really will die at field camp.. an old Muslim cemetery ground where we rest for every night..
Below is A little poem i always tell people around me.
Around the corner I have a friend,
In this great city that has no end,
Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,
And before I know it, a year is gone.
And I never see my old friends face,
For life is a swift and terrible race,
She knows I like her just as well,
As in the days when I rang her bell.
And she rang mine but we were younger then,
And now we are busy, tired human.
Tired of playing a foolish game,
Tired of trying to make a name.
'Tomorrow' I say! 'I will call on Girl
Just to show that I'm thinking of her.'
But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,
And distance between us grows and grows.
Around the corner, yet miles away,
'Here's a telegram Girl,' 'Sir died today.'
And that's what we get and deserve in the end.
Around the corner, a vanished friend.
Remember to always say what you mean.
If you love someone, tell them.
Don't be afraid to express yourself.
Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you.
Because when you decide that it is the right time it might
be too late.
Seize the day. Never have regrets.
And most importantly, stay close to your friends
and family, for they have helped
make you the person that you are today.
2:49:00 PM
Junwei