Its a killer week.. start of hell month.. another 20 more days.. its tough.. fucking tough.. i said the wrong things and now.. i guess im aimed.. wish me luck... hope i could survive next week.. four days only.. just four!! gosh... haisss.... this time im really scared... URGH!!!!!

i stepped into BQ again.. after a made my promise.. So promises are meant to be broken? i got fucking wasted.. Haven't had such a feeling for demn long.. the good thing is i didn't wake up with a headache or anything just feeling weak all over whole day.. guess its the reaction of the fatigue plus the alcohol..

This time i'm really very scared to book in.. i think im getting weaker by the day... chest hurt everytime i do strainous activities since last wed, dont think there anyting to do with old injury maybe its just a strain on it..
I know what i want already... i know what to do already...