Finally I've come to the last week of my 6months 3Sgt course.. All the sweat and blood we've shed this is how much pride we hold in our rank, but still I don't understand why would some people work so hard to get their 3Sgt rank but in the end all they want is just to be an admin spec I totally look down on such people. Not saying that being an admin spec is useless but I believe its not something that you should actually work towards. Different people does the same thing very differently.

Recently I've bump into many old friends, cant help but feel nostalgic. I miss so many things, so many people. I haven't been really happy for a long long time. Not that I am not happy now. But just that I am not as happy as I was. I miss alot of People.. Some I have not seen for years. People like Lynda, I would say we ended off very badly, but still she is someone I would often think about, wish that she is doing well. Hope that we could make the effort to find sometime to meet up again. If she still is the lady I Knew, I believe she is spending most of her time working again.


This two weeks of not doing anything in camp, I've got loads of time to sit down and think about my life. I came to realise that I always like to challenge the most challenging stuff, but I fail to comprehend that they are unattainable by me. Things that I could actually achieve without much effort, I've lost motivation and that caused all these to happen. Within the past two month I've lost all if not most of my will to fight, to fight for things i want. I've lost the motivation to do well. I can't understand why is these happening on me. I need time off... I need to rethink what I want. My mind is too disturb by all the redundant stuffs... I need to clear my head!!!
HELP!!! Im in need of a getaway!!! Who wants to be that kind soul and go with me?? I want to be happy again!!!!!!!!!!!

PS: I MISS YOU ALOT!!!!!!!!